Why I want to do MBA...

From last one year this question constantly haunts me... actually why I want to do MBA??

Frankly speaking till now I don't know why?? But yes I disparately want to do it....

From childhood till now all my academic decisions were prerogative of elders of my family...It was more like a master and follower relation....master told thee to do something and thy agreed to that...same way my uncle told me that I was good at math so I should do engineering( I am sure that he too would have not had knowledge about engineering) and I agreed...

With luck and prayer of love one's I cleared IIT-JEE, I remember it was first time during the counselling that I voiced my opinion that I want to join Msc-Mathematics in IIT-Kanpur which was to me seams the best option which was very easily ignored and I ended up doing my degree in Mechanical Engg..

But that was past story I do not have same pressure on me now...I can take my decision on my own( except some decisions) so now I want to do MBA by my choice not following my family mood of me being a IAS.

But now the real problem comes why do I want to do MBA??

There are two reason which I assume to be the real reason for my craving to do MBA...

1. I have not enjoyed any thing I have done so far neither my Mechanical Engg. nor my IT job.

2. I disparately want to be an entrepreneur and positively think business school will provide me a good insight and plate-form.

I have lately realized that I am good at two thing..

first:- I am an logical person and see every thing with an eye of engineer.

second:- I am good at connecting with people; I am good at putting myself at other shoe.

And last but not the least I want to go again into an institute with my own choice and live it with all my energy....

If you happen to see this post please do leave your suggestion...consider it my request....

Why I want to do MBA...

Pain of failure....

There is a great saying "After every night there will be morning and after every failure there will be success". From last one year I have been reminding this verse myself and were working towards my goal...This year as all my results are out I yet to taste success...

This year though all the difficulties I have faced I have realized one thing that if you crave for something it will elude you as in my case success....I know from bottom of my heart that my preparation this year was for better than that of last year but result shows the direct contrast...

Some where deep-down in my heart I know the reason but one part of me is not ready to buy that. Though that part is not listening I will still want to go ahead and write it down here just to make my other part feel better....

Last one year was the worst year of my life till now....from very beginning of year 2011 I had a very restless mind...which lead to unclear thought and this unclear mind prompt me to take some drastic decisions....

1. I decided against going to Argentina and thought of preparing for MBA.

2. Decided to so open resentment to my management instead of handling it diplomatically.

3. Decided to resign from company and to devote full time in preparation.

4. Last but not the least decided to settle personal relation.....

I rejoice first 3 but 4th caused a turmoil in my life ..... first time in life I realized how infirm I am..

This was the first time in my life (till now) that I went back on my words ...I said some thing meant something....My mind did not know what my mouth was saying....the every thing was utterly chaotic....

I had three front to confront with.... my Family....myself and some one I tremendously love...Being as stoical person I thought of taking every thing on me and tried to sooth rest two front......

logging off now....rest in next mail....

Fear of writing...

I talk lot but when it comes to write down my thought on paper a strange fear comes to my mind...I don't know where that comes from.

Out of much determination today I decided to start it, not because of passion but necessity.

I want to pursue management as my career in which effective writing is a very important. So here I come...I am putting one of my thought and request you if you happen to go thought it to comment on not only content of it but also on my writing...

Uncertainty is the most intriguing part of human life....it makes one to work hard and strive for every opportunity as one can not be sure of any thing...every thing is changing what one has or can do today one may not be able to mirror same tomorrow.

I want to cite one example of myself...

Last year I appeared in two MBA entrance examination scoring a decent if not good...95.5% in cat and 96% in XAT ....but did not get a call as I performed poorly in English section of XAT failing to clear english cutoff..that time I thought may be I can do better next year...but this is even after resigning from job I could not performed to my potential...I sought it as a classic example of uncertainty theory of human life....